i hate this feeling where u r hanging up there n u dunt know where to go, where to head, wat to do.. yes..u see the problem, u would like to solve it but... u cant do anything... it is heLL feeling i can say.

i hope an angel will juz drop from the sky and tell me wats going on and wat am i suppose to do. sometyms i juz feel like crying as i will feel totaLLy at lost. maybe i dunno how to handle stress, pressure, problems. yup, this is where the hatred on myself comes in.. i see situations, problems but i cant solve and i acted n handle in harsh manner.

i'm not cooL at aLL.

I'm a freak.

About Love - Love's 5 Languages

- Words of encouragement
- Acts of services
- Physical touch
- Quiet time
- Giving and receiving gifts

message from Sandy. what a meaningfuL one. So, if u r lost, go according to this 5 points and start to think back. . . .

can u imagine like..u toking abt love love n love for the past 2-3 hrs.. i am indeed.. with Sandy.. its all abt our past and present self... abt commitment..abt the pain and tears.... which makes me feel like looking back now...
look into the blogs i've blogged 2 years ago..some still so memorable..

u juz cant imagine, i feel like sobbing when readin at some..

Sunday, April 25, 2004
Hmm..Was reaLi Fun in tHe zouk...everyOne of us feel High..Ohohoo...was reaLi sorri to leave early...hmm.......*guilty.....so did anything special happen after tat??waking up earLi juz to check my emails etc..these 2 daes slept quite late..3 or 4am..think i'm gonna become panda soon..it's a gd thing tat darling came back but having a small conflicts 2 daes later after he returned..hahah..no la..he actualli forbid me to take alcoholic as i'm allergic to it but it's my favourite.. i like to drink..start drinking when i'm abt earli sec 4..almost every month touch alcohol..even though i went Medan i oso drink..those local beers..like to taste all kinds of beers & wines wherever i go..anyway..he oso worry tat if i'm drunk den sth will happen to me..maybe...keke....Anyway.. wanna thx u gals always bring me to places tat i've nv went be4..*obiang..haha..u gals r great!
with LOVE ; * 9:10 AM