i finally know wats going on. it is not a happy thing to know the truth sometimes. the truth always hurts. i dunno if i'm gonna handle this myself alone, perhaps, not a single soul can help me. i read an article, recently this year, ytd there's another female korean actress commit suicide, she's already the 3rd one this year. maybe no one can understand why. but i understand, sometimes some of the things u can only solve urself, not even ur closest kin nor partner can solve it for u. it may not be a bad decision to end a life, cox in this female actress's blog says "God is calling her and she knows very well, God will take gd care of her and definately she will be happier". i totally agreed. dun tink its stupid cox u can nv understand.