Life isn't that simple, everyone has to keep moving on no matter wat obstacles they met or encounted. think of a brighter side, if there's isn't any downs, life wont be as meaningful as it shd be. when u know what is wrong den u will know what is right. and of cox, differentiate good from bad.
no matter what happen, try knowing how to handle ur stress and move on, life not gg to stop here. time will still continue. pain wont stop here, neither happiness. becoz humans are fragile, that's why god made it full of ups & downs to let us learn how to be strong and much stronger. sometimes i'm tired. seriously. tired in the sense of mentally. too many things come into my mind at one time. i wanna cry but who is there to lend me a shoulder to lean on. though i haf a partner but he might not always be there for me. i know i might be needy. sorry. to certain extend, i wont wanna move on anymore. i wanna my time to stop here. stop breathing. i juz wanna cherish what i've got now. i wanna enjoy. may realise that i'm timid.why? timid to move on, dunt know what will happen next. enjoy the time now. but slowly i realised, i cant. God doesn't allow this to happen. God leads ppl to happiness with faith and hope. HE might not be signing contract with anybody, but HIS present is always here. you will feel HIM if u wanna feel. u know, even if the whole world left u, he will never. u will never gonna walk alone. trust HIM.

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i'm missing my sleep. i dreamt of explosion and fell into middle of deep blue sea. yes. i'm lost, i'm afraid. this two fears made me having wierd dreams. i managed to convince myself that i will be stronger, i wont be defeated. other den that, i dont need anything. i juz need Ray, afterall. pahetic me. i miss him.