its been quite sometime since i last blogged. i cant bring myself to face the fact that the history happened to me today. it lasted for 3 days and i cried for 3 days. maybe i'm weak. i dunno. i'm losing a fren juz like tat. i know tat i very much want to make myself talk to her but u know, as frens, it shdn't be this way. i dunno what happen and it juz happened like tat. i did nothing wrong but why find fault with me. i'm sad. i tried to make up things liked start to sms her but wat a cold reply i had in return. Whatever i've done, i had apologised, but has she ever wanna apologise for treating me this way? not i dun wanna make up things. once biten, twice shy. i'm not trying to act pity to show anybody who read my blog, i juz need a listening ear or a way to spill out my saddness. so i do appreciate ppl who read this entry dont make a big whoo-ha or even tell the person who's in this picture nor blame her nor mention anything to her. Just let it be. I've been thru this before, i think i'll be fine. once i had all my frens turned their back to me. blogged the ugly side of me on their blogs and when i apologised, things got worst. there's nothing worst tat i've been thru. i've got frens whom once turned their back to me and apologised and they r still my best mates. i nv blame them. cox i always believe that to be frens, its all abt fate. i shd treasure whatever and whoever i have now. i dont wish to bring up the matters anymore but i tink God is giving me another challenge in life that he wants to make me stronger and stronger. I dont wish to make up things now, i wanna leave it like tat. Not tat i'm selfish, seriously i tasted the most awful part of the process that no one can ever imagine. I'm afraid. Luckily, though i came till this stage, God has always give me some "pain-killers" which are some of the close frens i have. they consolled me, encouraged me to move on. well, i'm a emo-freak. i cannot stop my tears while typing out this entry. Its nothing! its really nothing to some ppl but it means alot to me. How could this happen to me again? i asked. but who can answer to my sorrow, who can be responsible for my saddness. only God knows whats the best for me.