my mind is blank today. jeannie dearie ask me to accompany her to bugis and i dint. i wanna hide. hide from everyone, no matter who. i avoid food, its my greatest enermy now. paranoid. irritated.freako. supposed to meet up with B but mood is not there. hope he's not angry with me.

i'm hiding myself in a little dark corner, hopefully someone who really knows me well can pull me out of there. i'm having nightmare every night and i dint really sleep well and enough. i know i'm in stress, i know something is not right. i hope its not a emo thing that its affecting my mood, apparantly i think so. i'm not sure this emo devil will last till when but of cox, i need him to cheer me up. i'm pleased that i heard the answer i wanna hear and i wanna know. i'm glad. not a lil sadness in me. things can be better i hope. hope we can be closer frens.

i hope i can get out of this dark cold area soon, my heart is hurting.. ..