when u really wanna work hard on something, it simply doesn't come to you. even its the most easy task, most common thing among all and feel like owning one. it simply leave u as far as it could, no matter how hard u work. why is it so?

Everything seems difficult for me. life really tiring. i wonder how long this tiredness tag along with me.i hope not. i seem to be very good friend of difficulties, it kept looking upon me, looking for me. i wonder why. sometimes i feel like crying and i really did cried, but thinking of the happiness i foresee, i'm strong again. i wonder if it is too tired for my mind and heart to take. or should i say, i cant hold any longer.

when can i get my things done? when it will come true? when will it come to me? when is happiness?

it is just another sad day for me, continuously for 2 days. sianz


Again. this fixed it all. rehab me.