i've stopped being sober. i've made it clear who is who, which character are u supposed to play in my life. i'm not going to repeat this anymore. everything just gotto stop here. i laid myself in dilemma for 2 months and 8months of laziness. now its the time to wake up my mind and move on. enough of rest, enough of tears. tats it!


I'm happy tat ray wakes me up from my stupid scary dream of mine. and happy mummy2 gav me the courage to move on and face the most horrible scarriest person on earth to me. now its time to clear every doubts and none shall be the barriers in my life.


yes. i love sweet talk, which gal doesn't like it. fake it out! too bad if u cant, out! i feel powered, with my heart so small but involved lotsa memories and people inside me. it feels like a small island which live people and happenings. i hope i can develop it into the modern Singapore like what we are living on now. fat hope sounds like Harry Lee. hoping to have some of his brain cells.


i'm very cleared of what i'm going to do now and whats next. though fickle minded and of cox, absent minded. nothing is going to stop me from achieving my target and goals now. i ever attended a sort of mind developing lesson. note down some goals u wanna achieve and how abt going to achieve that. i'm going to do that again! god do bless me, dont he?



i just changed my phone, thinking it's coming to a month. i'm sad to say goodbye to N70 couple phone and downgrade to say hello! to nokia6288 slide blackie bitchie mobile. i totally cannot accept it tat i'm using this phone from the first sight i saw her. i don't like to downgrade. shame. but as i'm using it till now, this bitch has seduced me tat i'm so attracted to it and totally feel satisfied when using it. slide and say hello! cool! isn't it? with my pic to be at the wallpaper. perfect! ha ha.. moreover, its the same damn phone as "lover" (*lover is his nick) (but N70 is actually the same phone as "my one & only", its another person's nick too) well, wat more matters to me is that, i wanna hold the same phone as u hubby, u broke my heart when u wanted to contribute your share to LG (Life's Good??). totally defeated by ur act. though i dint mention it at all, it has been bothering me for weeks....... okay, the next couple phone will be Apple iPhone, aren't we?



Studies is in a mess but i'm gonna clear all the shit up by the end of this month. why? tell u later. how abt getting the world's most driving licence? by this year. sit back & relax. my hero is coming back to give me a helping hand. who's that? There's a hero..when you look inside your heart.. familiar??? ask Maria Carey. and of cox, ray comes into the picture. he's someone not only to give me a helping hand but someone who will lift me up when i'm down.. haha. how powerful he is. of cox, love is powerful though its blind.



i'm very sure what am i facing now and i now by the end of this year, everything's gonna changed but ray will still be the shine of my life. how abt that? i wanna be someone whom i've created inside me, whom i always imagine of. not to tell u a little secret in my heart. shh.. i'm going to clear my mind which having full of doubts and start all over again. reborn i shd say. next year, life going to be more happenings, more fun. wats more. lesser saddness, lesser fats, lesser troubles and lesser sobers..and what u shd do. more TLC pls. supports is the most important i want from you.