dun get it wrong, i'm not feeling down. though things already happened but i cant be bothered. i dunno why, maybe i dun wish to think abt it but doesn't mean i'm not at least sadden by it. i know i disappointed to those who love me dearly but watever i need to let go to move on, i will.

i will keep moving on for my work as i've at least expected wat is it going to happen in the next few months. i hope no disappointment, please. Dearest God who is watching me from above, did u ever recognised my hard work and sincerity? i just wonder.

Maybe my luck is down, maybe the time is not yet there. maybe..maybe.. and more maybe-s.

With what its going to happen, with how others may look at me, i've got the least to care about them, cox, it all doesn't bothers me at all now.
I'm gonna re-construct my life and write down a to-do list.

I'm sorry for my own reaction, stubborness and playful-ness.

I'm sorry to myself for my own actions.

Whatever it is, please do always be by my side - ray.