i know where i am and where i stand. its okay if i had to walk alone, i'm definately fine. i don't need a single soul neither i need u to be there for me. i will just do it all by myself. i do not need anyone to pity me and go along with my stubborness, including you.

its 3.56am on my lappie, i'm here, cant sleep. only saddness accompany me, whoelse. i'm not happy, i'm not alright. i'm stucked in dilemma. i'm sandwiched. to let it got or to hold on to it. no one can tell me, no one will accompany me till the end, i know, including you. everyone looks down on me and neverthless, including you. everyone is watching my show and booing on me, including you. everyone laughed behind my back, inlcuding you. everyone dislike me, inlcuding you. everyone left me behind and move on, including you. everyone is happy among themselves and left me out, inlcuding you.

i'm moving on in my own world, without you. i'm happy with myself, without you. i'm living with loneliness, without you. i cry in the rain, without you. i shout by the sea, without you. i travel around and see the world, without you. i granted my own wish, without you. i will walk down the road in future, without you. i plan my life, without you.

how many things u are not in my picture anymore. u r totally out of my world. i'm sad to say this and i know that i'm silly enough to be like this. how on earth this happen, how could this have happen.

Me, starting to plan my life without him in the picture. i hope living by this, we could live better, for now and for future. this is wat u wanna see, this is wat i wana feel. nothing impossible becomes everything possible. full of love equals none. everything has came to an end. my heart just died here. nowhere. my heart beat stops, right now.

Goodbye to the dreams, goodbye to the prayers. i'm just getting so far, far away land. dun tell god about it, cox i'm all ready to be an abandon child. i cried. tears flowed down my cheeks. which means its an end. but wat can anyone could say. i write the script of my life. tats wat i am.