going into marriage is about walking through the next part of your life with someone u really love. it's not the matter of age. You can't say "i'm 38 now and i think i wanna get married" ..NO No. It's not this way. It is having a partner for sometime where he/she lets you feel that you have reached a stage where you wanna be married to the person. The beauty of love is that you really found someone, the one and only in your life. The power of love is no matter how lousy or bad is the person, you still love him deep.

I think alot of things will come to an end for me, no matter good or bad. after this week, depends on the end state, i might just leave the world for awhile. I wanna hide somewhere out there. *cross fingers. i hope someone can fly me to the moon. I'm afraid but I've never mention. I might look like I'm okay but actually I'm not. Give me a break. I need fresh air. As mention, i don't need anyone's comments nor questioning.

Today is important to me. Need alot of thinking......