and i thought "its the 2nd time i sit down, unmoved, thinking that there's nothing i can do"

1st time was several years back, came home and saw my dad's arm was wounded with needles pokes. finally he went for dialysis to keep his life... bearing the pain for us and not for himself. i was still a student back then.. daddy got to keep his life moving just for us.

1st reaction was, turned into bedroom and cry my heart out.

Dad came in and asked if i'm okay, why am i crying... i said.."nope.. just my eyes are itchy.."

1st time thinking that there is nothing i can do to make him feel better. i hope i can share his pain...the word is "hopeless" .. it is really nothing that people and money could solve... nothing...

But daddy didnt give up... he continued to work so hard with all the pain he was going through.. he fainted a few times at the dialysis centre.. he felt so weak and yet he didnt give a little hope up...

then i know, we shd be stronger than him.. we are his sunshine...

*tears flow again.. 

Today, the second time i'd got this feeling..(not abt my dad)... something i cant do.. something i cant use anything to exchange for... i counldn't share the sadness... the disappointment..

yes.. i might not gone through what you have been but i feel how you feel.

i always believe.. there will be sunshine after the rain..

we should have some belief in God above that he has made necessary arrangement for us.

our life will be better after this.

No pain. No gain.