i'm staying up late. not juz to be happy abt the exams are finally over but to watch a drama series thru youtube. though its not easy as u haf to download it one by one, part by part, but i'm juz this stubborn. it's the little exchange "gift" for putting my hardwork for the exams. i granted myself that i can stay up late to catch the show.its really a nice comedy, romantic drama series by cyndi - soria pasta (*wei siao pasta). channel 56 is showing it every weekend but i cant wait till den. i have told myself that i wanna buy this drama series vcd so i dun haf to face my lappy and view it in small screen. its really a very touching show tat i almost cried for a few times. but somehow i feellike this show is copying the korean drama series by Rain. i cant remember the name but so far, Rain acted in only one drama series. i love this kind of drama cox it oftens let me realise some things and some people in life which/whom are very important to me. well, u will see it better when u see it as a whole rather den u view it as only at your point of view or even u are one of the actor/actress in real life. i always haf alot of imaginations which lead to lotsa dreams and goals in life, i wanna achieve all but i know, God wont be so baised towards me. i can only realize one dream but which one, i'm not sure. its all up to fate to choose. thats why, when u make wishes on ur birthday, u cant wish alot, at most, three. cox god is fair to everyone,not everybody will be granted all their wishes. only the most precious to them will be revealled. when there's gain, there's lost. no one can actually escape from it. lucky? who actually can be called lucky? Lucky is someone who actually has a wish or hope been granted which is most precious and important to him/her and the person feel contented, enough. for so much i've said, i only wanna say that though i hve a little dreamwaiting to be granted, but i'm not willing to let go anything i haf on hand now. so whats there to exchange? well, i'm contented now. i'm happy. i had a wish, i hope i will meet someone like superman whom will appear whenever i create trouble, whenever i'm down, someone can be there for me. whenever i cry, a shoulder to console. whenever i'm happy, someone to share with. someone whom can gif me a hug whenevr i need encouragement.i thought, i wont be able to find this person ever. to think back, sometimes even ur closest mate wont be able to be that one. i always think that this person must be a story, appearing in a narrative story telling. even a santa only come once a year, he wont be there always for anyone. yesterday nite, after i read a 186 sms-es, i realised that this person has always been there for me. seriously i dint even thought of that till i looked back, looked thru the sms-es den i realised how much effort he put into our relationship, how much time he spent to be there for me. i burst into tears yesterday nite, i feel touched,completely. though i feel this way, i'm very speechless and dare not face him cox i feel guilty. for the past 1 over years, i haf nv done antyhing to help him. i dunt think i haf ever be there for him neither i make him happy when he's down.i wonder if he mind, i wonder if anyone shd juz snatch him away from me.. thats why i dare not wish for anything cox i'm afraid fate might juz take him away to exchange for my granted wish. how silly u might think.

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