i thought i feel lesser for you. i thought i wont feel bad nor unhappy even we had cold war or arguement, but, my feelings are still controlled by you. its really been so long that i ever quarrel in a relationship, dun tink so much, till now, still don't. At most, its only cold war and just kept quiet for a long time. I'm glad we handle it this way, i went for a run and you went to find a fren for a talk. After which, everything is fine, we apologise to each other and trying to be more understanding. i felt sense of warmth, happiness.

Recently the word "marriage" has been flying around me and i thought i would be very happy but i feel more vexed and unwilling to move myself out of my house. Its alot of things to prepare, alot of things to worry about. I'm not ready to commit, i think. i still got lots of things i wanna do. Okay, lets not talk about it and please frens, don't mention about it. I knew i found the right guy but i'm not a gal who is ready for marriage. Nah, its too soon... for everything to settle down.

Recently i'm too busy with my project and everyday i sleep at 5am, cant imagine, got to finish by today as today ia the last day of my "vacation", gonna start work soon. Different post, different role, different me. Hopefully everything will start well..

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