I'd just feel something has changed........ Ha!
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Different...
Saturday, January 07, 2012
Did I not look different from year to year.......
有得必有失
Friday, January 06, 2012
I always thot if I could handle things appropriately & giving my utmost effort in everything I do, I will be able to get what I want.
Eventually, nope..... I was given disappointment & the most ridiculous unfair treatment I ever could imagine nor ever happened in my life. I guess, everything has to be so sensitive & because of sensitivity, I was & still am receiving the most non-standard way of treatment.
To me, it's an insult
To me, it's an unfair treatment
To me, it is not about business anymore
To me, you are telling me everything done was not being appreciated
To me, you are telling me I've to let go everything I have now
To me, you failed me
To me, you are telling me things are not seen by objectives
To me, you are telling me the only way to be fair to others is being not fair to me
To me, this is all about disappointment
To me, you kill my passion
To me, you killed me.....
Am I greedy.. for being wanting to own every little good thing in my life?
I hope, this shall be the last test that God is going to give it to me...
With this entry, my disappointment stops here & I shall never ever gonna mention about it from now. I will move on, do better, to get a life for myself.
I gained & I lost...
To Career... Goodbye...
New Year. Old Things.
Monday, January 02, 2012
I don't wanna write down new resolutions which always got aged & never happened.
Instead of having new happenings in my life, I'm afraid of losing things in my life now.
I would rather state down things which meant lots to me & I wanna keep them all...
1) Good Health of family members
2) My ever-so-sweet relationship
3) Monthly pay-cheaque. (Of cox, no one will ever satisfied with any amount & I don't mind to get more~~)
4) BFFs
5) Lancome supply
6) The always happened shopping spree
7) The love from everyone
8) The current good skin
Simple?
Well, really hope for a good 2012 ahead. *fingers crossed
Instead of having new happenings in my life, I'm afraid of losing things in my life now.
I would rather state down things which meant lots to me & I wanna keep them all...
1) Good Health of family members
2) My ever-so-sweet relationship
3) Monthly pay-cheaque. (Of cox, no one will ever satisfied with any amount & I don't mind to get more~~)
4) BFFs
5) Lancome supply
6) The always happened shopping spree
7) The love from everyone
8) The current good skin
Simple?
Well, really hope for a good 2012 ahead. *fingers crossed
Xmas Eve Celebration Part 1
Monday, December 26, 2011
We have heard from people of this particular boutique hotel named: The New Majestic
The very small cosy swimming pool.
Indeed, this name may sounded chi-na but not a least of "obiang" in the interior design.
Every room has it's own theme, from Wayang to Sexy to Exclusive, all designed by our very own emerging Singaporean artists.
We had our room, named: You Define Me by Heleston Chew
You Define Me: A simple room comes with relax theme is what we wanted. To avoid the very stressful worklife. We are looking for.. Work-Life-Balance
The very small cosy swimming pool.
1st: We didn't bring our swimwear
2nd: It's been raining all day long
So, we didn't get to enjoy the nice pool
The lobby.
I love this pink chair. Sweet~
The Lovely Christmas Tree
The hotel guy took 3 times to get a nice shot of us. Poor man.. Think it's time to get a new camera? =X oopx
All ready to leave for our lovely dinner. Yeah~
Romantic Dinner on our Special Day
Saturday, November 19, 2011
We had a romantic dinner at one of the restaurants on the cruise. Surprisingly the dinner is so worthwhile & the standard of food is superb!
Posh setup..
The restaurant layout..
Lightings..
Me..
Appetizer.. salads..
Love & Me <3 <3 <3
My Handsome Love..
Versace plates.............!!!!!!!
I love my Dearie......
Thursday, November 10, 2011
He has never forget a single thing I've said.....
And he bought me this.....................
Smurfette!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I love him more than anything in my life. Muackz!♥ ♥
The first year for the past 5years able to celebrate my Dad's birthday on his actual day. The family has been compromising due to every year end Sitex show and I got to work on his birthday. This year is so special~
Long Weekend - Hari Raya
Monday, November 07, 2011
Had a great long weekend due to Hari Raya & the only thing I do not allow myself to take a break is missing my dearie :) ♥ ♥
At Flyer - Urban Beach Bar.
Though it's not the 1st time there but trust me, you will never be bored with the scenery they've got at night. A good place to spend time with your love ones & of cox, friends.
I brought friends there but seriously, let's not post them. =X
Very next day @ Illy Cafe - Studio M hotel
Celebrating Lawrence's birthday at 2D1N Korean Restaurant
Club hop... nope... we drink-hop. @ Red Lantern
Well.. you must be wondering where are the guys' pics. You know, they are serious in their conversation so........ I shall not disturb them...
"Drink-hop" again @ Liang Court Party World
♥ ♥ ♥
Dearie with birthday boy
I wish and then I hope.....
Thursday, October 20, 2011
If you know me well, I don't put high expectation on everything. E.g. I won't bet on ManUtd even it's going to match with Blackburn..
That's to prevent hurting myself in the end.
As you know, the higher you expect, the greater you fall..
High expectations comes from the trust given, if you realised.
You might not be the one who put yourself in this situation but someone just got you there, if you know what I meant.
In conclusion, you can never ever rely and handover your life to someone you trust most because it might just fail you one day.
You never know.
That's why, there's always a saying, "Only God knows..."
E V E R Y T H I N G
Thursday, August 18, 2011
Define Everything
Show IPA
eve·ry·thing
[ev-ree-thing] Show IPAIt is ever the first time someone made me feel that when I say everything, it doesn't really mean EVERYTHING which really made me so guilty for the past few hours till now. I think that some of the things I can't hold on to nor I can grab hold of.
I'm very lost, very disappointed with myself and bringing my mood down to another level. Any chance given? Nope. How and what can I do to compensate? I don't know.
Frustrated with whatever had happened and I think I shall not write further.
Gonna watch my destress cartoon and hit lala-land soon.
Night all. With love, tmr's a better day.
TGIF.
Titanium - Ease the Upset
Saturday, August 13, 2011
It's my 1st time to Titanium and I left at about 1am? Can't remember, FFL was right, just a few glasses and I'm gone. Ha! The beer is the thing which killed me.
I guess we din take any pics and anyway, I din't make-up last night to club. Only thong my hair which made me look sexy, that's all. I'm not in the least at the mood of going to club but I really have very nice and close-to-heart colleagues whom I can't bear to reject. We got our agency to book 2 tables for us so we can view the Thai girls very clearly. We had lots of drinks and of cox, fun.
I regret for giving up the HTC Likes awards ticket and now when I look into Jayesslee Youtube clip, I think this twins is marvelous, they really sing very very well.
Grandma in memories
Sunday, August 07, 2011
Woke up at 7ish this morning to pray my late grandparents.
During the praying session, the memories I had with my grandma slowly came back into my mind. I remembered how she reacted everytime she saw me and the care she given me was so much compared to other cousins. I had never feel the difference actually only until a friend of hers came to her wake and asked, "Which one is Yanting?" My mum pointed at me and the old lady started talking on how much my grandma praised me infront of her friends. I covered my mouth with 2hands and started crying. Suddenly, the loss seemed so much bigger than I could ever imagine.
Anyway, it was 2years already and seemed like everyone has moved on. No more cryings while praying, no more gossiping about my 2 failure uncles.
I know my grandma has never once leave me and she will always be kept deeply in my heart. Though I was given nothing after she left us and one of my uncles took away most of her jewellery, I'm actually contented. I had something that no one can every steal it away from me... that is the memories I shared with my grandma. This is what those idiots can never take it away...
Being Fair..
Tuesday, August 02, 2011
Is it fair to me?
How many times you have asked this question to yourself or him? What's the meaning of being fair? Are you arguing for the treatment has been given in previous relationship? Or are you only asking for the good not the bad?
There's no solutions to the above statement, the only thing you can do is escape by not giving a chance to think about it. The more you think, the more you sadden. It's not going to end. Apparantly, this will be girls' biggest challenge.
I can't elaborate more but only to talk within me & myself. What a crowd...
With this peace but troubled mood, I came by this blog. Not much of smiles but so much of saddness further.
I wonder.
I wonder what it’s like for you when I’m not around.
I wonder if you miss having me in your passenger seat and holding your hand. Singing along to the song playing and us yelling in the car, just for the fun of it. Making weird noises, talking, laughing, eating, sleeping, or being comfortably silent with each other. Swinging our arms back and forth while our fingers are intertwined. Having your arm held onto for warmth and randomly stopping to hug you in amidst of walking to a destination. Watching you intently with your hands on the wheel, you side-glancing at me every now and then, and kissing you at stoplights. Demanding you to focus on driving and suddenly realizing we like a lot of the same songs. Laughing at jokes and about the most ridiculous remarks. Having pillow fights, tickling each other, and cuddling on your bed. Having me to lay with and messing up your room some more. Occupying all the places that felt empty to you. Story-telling, sharing experiences, talking about nonsense, and saying little sentiments in our own way, mentioning things around others that only we could understand. Just smiling, happy, the entire time we’re together.
Do you ever notice my absence like I notice yours? Does it hit you hard or just as much as it bothers me? Does your hand feel lonely without mine the way I feel it without you here? Does seeing couples in public remind you of me the way it reminds me of you? Does it make you miss me the way it makes me miss you? Do you sing quietly to yourself and actually pay more attention to the road? Does your mind wander and make its way back to me when you’re alone the way you float around in my thoughts more often than not? Is it colder without me—are you smiling as much as when I’d be with you?
How many times you have asked this question to yourself or him? What's the meaning of being fair? Are you arguing for the treatment has been given in previous relationship? Or are you only asking for the good not the bad?
There's no solutions to the above statement, the only thing you can do is escape by not giving a chance to think about it. The more you think, the more you sadden. It's not going to end. Apparantly, this will be girls' biggest challenge.
I can't elaborate more but only to talk within me & myself. What a crowd...
With this peace but troubled mood, I came by this blog. Not much of smiles but so much of saddness further.
I wonder.
I wonder what it’s like for you when I’m not around.
I wonder if you miss having me in your passenger seat and holding your hand. Singing along to the song playing and us yelling in the car, just for the fun of it. Making weird noises, talking, laughing, eating, sleeping, or being comfortably silent with each other. Swinging our arms back and forth while our fingers are intertwined. Having your arm held onto for warmth and randomly stopping to hug you in amidst of walking to a destination. Watching you intently with your hands on the wheel, you side-glancing at me every now and then, and kissing you at stoplights. Demanding you to focus on driving and suddenly realizing we like a lot of the same songs. Laughing at jokes and about the most ridiculous remarks. Having pillow fights, tickling each other, and cuddling on your bed. Having me to lay with and messing up your room some more. Occupying all the places that felt empty to you. Story-telling, sharing experiences, talking about nonsense, and saying little sentiments in our own way, mentioning things around others that only we could understand. Just smiling, happy, the entire time we’re together.
Do you ever notice my absence like I notice yours? Does it hit you hard or just as much as it bothers me? Does your hand feel lonely without mine the way I feel it without you here? Does seeing couples in public remind you of me the way it reminds me of you? Does it make you miss me the way it makes me miss you? Do you sing quietly to yourself and actually pay more attention to the road? Does your mind wander and make its way back to me when you’re alone the way you float around in my thoughts more often than not? Is it colder without me—are you smiling as much as when I’d be with you?
1st Anniversary - 16th June 2011
Saturday, July 09, 2011
11 Pink Roses to start the day. Where's the 12th rose?
C.H.A.R.M.I.N.G
Sunday, January 30, 2011
CHARMING
I just did a dictionary check on the word "charming" hehe....
–adjective
1.
pleasing; delightful: a charming child.
2.
using charm; exercising magic power.
How? Has he make your Sunday a beautiful one? L.O.V.E
My Fault
Thursday, January 20, 2011
When am i ever getting ready? Yes, i should have try my very best to move on after certian things had happened already and i should have realised it all the while. I guess being independent without brain cells is rubbish. Or should i say i must start to discipline myself after being so "wild" for a long time. . . I should just click on the "restart" button in me. . .
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What A Start for A Brand New Year
Thursday, January 06, 2011
I've actually got 2 blog entries waiting to be posted after some editing but I think things changed after I went to the Buddhist Master. I guess whatever resolution mentioned in my entry were all rubbish.
I've never ever believe or should I say follow whatever they have said though it was my 3rd time "asking" what would happened in future. To my very much surprise, everything is so negative or should I say I take them negatively.
"She" told me about my job which I've always have concern on and care the most. It's demoralising to know that something bad will happen but it might not be the worst. See how you position it. It might be a relieve to me but am not ready to make any changes now. I guess no one understand, not even the very closed ones.
It's upsetting that I've put in so much effort and gaining this kind of returns. I was thinking, "If I haven't been that curious, I won't land up in this situation now." Keep having negative thots everyday and bringing me nowhere.
I don't wish and don't want to be reminded that bad omen will happened, I mean, I've already had something in mind but please, don't remind me in reality. To others it might not be a bad thing after all but to me, it may mean lots. The reason of don't wish to be reminded is that I don't wanna be stressed by "it" every now and then AND I don't want to keep having thots and do my job badly.
It's stressful. It's tiring. Very much I wanna do well here but is "God" hinting me something........
It's a thing that you will never understand.......
Still still sick!
Sunday, December 12, 2010
Okay, how many times have you heard me saying that I'm sick? This is going to be the ONE LAST TIME.
Sleepless night yesterday and bad dreams to make it worst. Why is it so? Stress? I wonder.
I'm really happy with my life now with Cliffy and I thought he might be the most wonderful man in the world. Though there are flaws in the relationship and I thought I'm quite strong to get over it. Everythings' so dramatic and I guess not a single soul understand how much stress I've been through to be able to get in this stage. I'm glad I made it and a level up! I'm so impressed with myself. YES! Myself!
Despite the sickness, I'm still very much enjoying my life with friends & family & of cox, love.
Side track, "Give love a break" <-- A brand is using this quote and I wonder why! Uncle Mel intro me to Admiral @ Singapore Flyer. You may REALLY wanna try it cox it's romantic and views are marvelous!
I love my homeland more and more with all the places built up, MBS, Flyers, USS and also not forgetting the upcoming Garden by the Sea! It's incredible! It's AMAZING! After I knew they will have this mushroom-like towers built and you actually able to dine there, it's definitely lovely!
Admiral is outdoor dining, chilling, grilling... It's a place with good live band, people and food..atmosphere.. A place definitely worth trying out!
Taken by Sony NEX. Cool!
Sleepless night yesterday and bad dreams to make it worst. Why is it so? Stress? I wonder.
I'm really happy with my life now with Cliffy and I thought he might be the most wonderful man in the world. Though there are flaws in the relationship and I thought I'm quite strong to get over it. Everythings' so dramatic and I guess not a single soul understand how much stress I've been through to be able to get in this stage. I'm glad I made it and a level up! I'm so impressed with myself. YES! Myself!
Despite the sickness, I'm still very much enjoying my life with friends & family & of cox, love.
Side track, "Give love a break" <-- A brand is using this quote and I wonder why! Uncle Mel intro me to Admiral @ Singapore Flyer. You may REALLY wanna try it cox it's romantic and views are marvelous!
I love my homeland more and more with all the places built up, MBS, Flyers, USS and also not forgetting the upcoming Garden by the Sea! It's incredible! It's AMAZING! After I knew they will have this mushroom-like towers built and you actually able to dine there, it's definitely lovely!
Admiral is outdoor dining, chilling, grilling... It's a place with good live band, people and food..atmosphere.. A place definitely worth trying out!
Taken by Sony NEX. Cool!
Engine Broke Down
Wednesday, December 01, 2010
I'm down with very bad sore throat.. which is always the case. It is that bad till doctor has to prescribe antibiotics to fight the virus. I asked the doctor why this is always happening and for the next few days, my voice will "go on holiday". He explained due to weak immune system and in order to strengthen immune system, here are the things you can also do:
- Intake Vitamin C
- Exercise
- Prevent going to crowded places
- Have enough rest/sleep
- Drink plenty of water
A picture with no make up....
P.S. I look worse than this now.....
- Intake Vitamin C
- Exercise
- Prevent going to crowded places
- Have enough rest/sleep
- Drink plenty of water
A picture with no make up....
P.S. I look worse than this now.....
L.O.V.E
Sunday, November 14, 2010
He has been very patience and trying his very best to participate in every of mine family occasions despite his busy schedule. We had a busy weekend: Friday- Cousin Pearlyn's Birthday Party. Saturday- God Mummy's Birthday dinner & chill. Sunday: Dim Sum with family & dinner at Grandma's house. He's been very good boy(*keke), didn't complain that it is boring nor waste of time. I appreciate much.
Feeling very in love & he's making my day every now and then. Coming to think of it, we didn't date for very long but he has already done so much for me. He is really working hard for us and our future.
I'm very very touched. Very very happy. Very very in love.
Thanks for loving me.
Feeling very in love & he's making my day every now and then. Coming to think of it, we didn't date for very long but he has already done so much for me. He is really working hard for us and our future.
I'm very very touched. Very very happy. Very very in love.
Thanks for loving me.
Japan pics...
Tuesday, November 02, 2010
Okay, I admit I'm lazy.... I blogged bit by bit....... =P
I love my big black bag! It is light and I can put tons of things.....
In the plane, ANA Airline~ Do I look refresh? I only slept like 2hours in the plane but it all thanks to Vichy, my saviour... Anyway...I'm a spoilt brat and I can only sleep in SQ flight. =X
I love my big black bag! It is light and I can put tons of things.....
In the plane, ANA Airline~ Do I look refresh? I only slept like 2hours in the plane but it all thanks to Vichy, my saviour... Anyway...I'm a spoilt brat and I can only sleep in SQ flight. =X
Took this pic outside Norita Airport. The bad thing about this is we have to walk to the coach carpark where the coaches are parked and we got to carry our own luggage.......*tedious
I love the pic below...... I will always remember the fun we had, the coldness we felt.
~Happy Deepavali~ Happy Holiday~
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