I've never ever believe or should I say follow whatever they have said though it was my 3rd time "asking" what would happened in future. To my very much surprise, everything is so negative or should I say I take them negatively.

"She" told me about my job which I've always have concern on and care the most. It's demoralising to know that something bad will happen but it might not be the worst. See how you position it. It might be a relieve to me but am not ready to make any changes now. I guess no one understand, not even the very closed ones.

It's upsetting that I've put in so much effort and gaining this kind of returns. I was thinking, "If I haven't been that curious, I won't land up in this situation now." Keep having negative thots everyday and bringing me nowhere.

I don't wish and don't want to be reminded that bad omen will happened, I mean, I've already had something in mind but please, don't remind me in reality. To others it might not be a bad thing after all but to me, it may mean lots. The reason of don't wish to be reminded is that I don't wanna be stressed by "it" every now and then AND I don't want to keep having thots and do my job badly.

It's stressful. It's tiring. Very much I wanna do well here but is "God" hinting me something........

It's a thing that you will never understand.......