Wishing everyone a happy dragon year!

I seriously love my CNY dress this year & I thot it's special with the powder blue and flower prints on it.

This year is special. I met Cliff's grandma for the 1st time & though with the same dialect as me, I am a failure in teochew family. Ha! That's because my Dad has never culture me with speaking Teochew, but, you may test my Hokkien perhaps. Luckily Cliff's grandma can speak a lil mandarin so we still can communicate. Not so bad afterall.

Anyway, as I'm receive the ang baos, almost all the uncles & aunties telling me, "Hope this is the last year giving you ang bao".. Well, is this a form of blessing? I just replied, "Ok, hopefully....." (*Happily having the ang bao in hands & escaped)

Daddy also telling me the same thing & we had our lil chat on the eve. He clearly stated what he wants to see this year & told me that my age is catching up, it's time to get married. I told him.. marriage is about getting together with the right man & it's not about the "right time"... Let's not rush for things. Let's leave it to fate.

I love my family & I hope Cliff enjoys being part of us. I'm grateful that they have been treating Cliff well & wanting him to join in every of our occasions.

This year shall be my turning point. A year that me, the lil rat, gonna live in a better environment & may happiness stay with me.

I was away for 5 "good" days and I can't describe how much I miss Cliff from the moment we bid goodbye at the airport. I suddenly feel so incomplete.. so insecure.. so uncomfortable..

I told myself that 5 days will be over soon and trying my best not to think of him so much but no matter what, it doesn't work. Until to one "desperate" moment... I took out our photo from my wallet to ease the abit of missing and my colleagues started to shake head and said.. "OMG"

Till that moment... I realized.............

I left my heart with him.......since a long time ago...