i haven't been really seriously blogging recently due to the cranky mood i'm having. i feel so bad after i "te-kan" raymond while on the other side, he's facing a bad situation. i cant deny how worried i am for him and all this worries that i had, he didnt seem to see and put me in last of his mind. i admit i shouldnt flare but here i go "If i'm only a choice in your life, then why should i put in priority?" I know i must be mad, and his reply, he was sad too. i'm sorry i hurt you, hubby.

i read someone's blog (whom i don't know) and it's about the NS guy who died in Brunei weeks ago becox of heatstroke and this blog belongs to his gf. I cant describe my feelings which really hurt lots and reading the entry which the gf waiting for his return and it was 4days before his actual return date. The gf patiently waited and missing him so much. Here he's gone. I cant say how much hurt i felt after reading this entry but anger filled me more. I hate reading this kind of articles, not becox it's abt sadness. I agreed that every guys should attend the military training but yes, they are there for training, not for death. Have been reading quite alot of this cases and i feel sad for their parents and loved ones. This is not the way. And if it is, then, do not grumble about our population is not there and got the least give birth rates in the whole world. You had kill your own people. Whats more to say. I shdn't penalised the government but i think its all the officers who are involved in this kind of trainings and they always find ways to "te-kan" the guys, i agreed u can do a lil' but by doing this far and cause death is so unfair, wat are they? They are not criminals nor your slaves. They don't have to answer to death. Why so? You guys got to rmb, every human here has family and their parents, everyone here is made of blood, so u think if u are some officer big shot, big deal. I hate signed on sometimes, narrow minded. straight like log. self-centred. I'm sorry if u were one of them, but if u think are not this kind of signed on ppl, den i'm not talking abt you.

I got so much of heart-felt words. Sorry, i'm really down.

Labels: emo, raymond