i was not supposed, i guess, to complain about my job. yes indeed! i got a great boss and nice colleagues. just that alot of little little craps i didnt look into. i kept thinking that this month i had hit my target! i closed 2 deals which hit my first comm but little that i knew that comm will only come if payment were collected. wtf. den how do i judge? if i managed to close (customer chop sign on quotation), we issued invoice, it doesnt mean i get my comm. If i billed them on aug, some payments were collected in sept, some collected in october, does it mean i will still get my comm for month of august or boss will say, sorry, the payment must come together THEN will consider hit quota. NB. i cant think much nw and i think that i'm starting to hate my job. i cant announce, i supposed to have some pride and show everyone, Eve can do it! well, i still can tahan the shit i'm getting in job, customers i met, un-loved r/s treatment. i cant complain much as there are still ppl looking and starring at me, looking at which day i will quit my job and go back to SiS, getting dump by hubby, got no more $$ to do manicure, no more $$ for branded. its like wat haf i done to come into this stage?

Yesterday this taxi uncle asked me "why u work so hard, its 3plus and u yet had ur lunch". yes uncle, i knew. its something u didnt know. . .

i managed to see daddy2 and happy that he got strong will of living and using his loud voice to scold a BMW sales rep. i miss his scoldings. he just bought a BMW 5series just to pamper himself. *all i wan is a Gucci bag" omg. well, of cox i got shit from him as usual, lectures and scoldings, watelse, i'm always not good enough. jack of all trades. i just feel like telling him, i had hard time but i cant. i hope one day god will appreciate my hard work and give me my sky of rainbow.

its the last 2 papers of my final year and nothing shd goes wrong. NOTHING. i pray hard to lord, i must pass this 2 papers. i got lots to do, to achieve in life. the very next is driving licence, daddy's changing his car again! Vios is coming in september :( he's tempting me more and more lo. damn it!

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